I'm due at the office in 2 week's time. That's 2 months and 2 weeks of leave. I know that being a part from my son is nerve wrecking and heart breaking, but in a weird way i miss working. I miss my lunchmates the most haha. I will just have to admit i am not a stay at home mother material. Well it is nice to have a long break, but to make it permanent..that's just not me.
Alhamdulillah taking care of my baby has been a wonderful experience, i am happy to admit i can care for him single handedly, even bath him singlehandedly thanks to some mothercare sponge-gadget thingy. Although it can be very tiring!
But my son will just have to learn that i will not be able to be there for him 24-7. Thanks to a supportive famly, i will be in the routine of sending the baby and the maid daily to Ibu n daddy nursery on weekdays.
Loads to prepare- time to select clothes that can actually fit now, and organise daily activities so that we dont go haywire when 8 March comes!
Friday, February 19, 2010
A mother's heart
Being a new mother, there is so much to talk about. Endless. But basically i know every mom wants the best for their child. It's an overwhelming feeling when you just want your baby to eat the best food, use the best products, learn from the best and is cared for by just the best people around.
These days i find that i put my son's interest above and beyond mine. well that's cliche. But the process of it is interesting, when my heart aches every time i hear him cry (loud), or my heart melts when he gurgles and coos. Or when i spend all my money on him. It's funny that all of this is happening like an automatic response to what life has to offer. Never in my life have i ever cared loved or protect another being, the way i do now. God is Great, and a mother's heart is so fragile.
Sometimes i reflect this on thinking, that was how my parents felt when they raised us. Raising children can be utterly heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time.
My son, my life!
These days i find that i put my son's interest above and beyond mine. well that's cliche. But the process of it is interesting, when my heart aches every time i hear him cry (loud), or my heart melts when he gurgles and coos. Or when i spend all my money on him. It's funny that all of this is happening like an automatic response to what life has to offer. Never in my life have i ever cared loved or protect another being, the way i do now. God is Great, and a mother's heart is so fragile.
Sometimes i reflect this on thinking, that was how my parents felt when they raised us. Raising children can be utterly heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time.
My son, my life!
Breastfeeding
Bf can be quite an exasperating experience. There are good days, and low days. I have only been able to exclusively bf my son for one month; after that...and even after reading so much about perseverance to bf..we started to supplement him on Mamex Gold. Of course i still continue pumping and bf. It was mixed feelings at first, i most sympathize him cos we all know bf milk is still no.1. but at the the same time i feel a sense of relief, at least my baby boy will go to sleep feeling 'kenyang' and wont wake up every half an hour for some ne-nen.
But overall, i think it's a mother's choice as to what she wants to feed her child.
I hope to bf Luqman for as long as i can, to provide him with the nutritions breastmilk can provide..and also because it creates a great bond between me and him.
When i put him close to me, to my breast and he sucks well, i feel that i am his sense of relief, sense of belonging, completeness. Like i am the answer to all his troubles, the cure to all his miseries; it's a world created with just the 2 of us in it, clutching each other tight in our arms. And there is no feeling in this world better than that.
Mommy loves you baby!
But overall, i think it's a mother's choice as to what she wants to feed her child.
I hope to bf Luqman for as long as i can, to provide him with the nutritions breastmilk can provide..and also because it creates a great bond between me and him.
When i put him close to me, to my breast and he sucks well, i feel that i am his sense of relief, sense of belonging, completeness. Like i am the answer to all his troubles, the cure to all his miseries; it's a world created with just the 2 of us in it, clutching each other tight in our arms. And there is no feeling in this world better than that.
Mommy loves you baby!
Friday, February 12, 2010
Bee is for Baby
A friend recommended this organic product, and i love it! Good for baby's skin, good for me! Available in Singapore.
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